Yep. We have stepped into Mommyhood people. And that is big isn’t it? Big and tough to not talk about. Imagine this. I think I started writing introductory posts in my head for the little one in the making right from that early morning on the 9th of Feb, 2011, when my blurry, half asleep eyes grew wide at a tremendous rate, as they saw a faint pink second line, slowly appear on the pregnancy test.
And write I did. A few lines here. A few lines there. I couldn’t put anything coherent together, but was always in a way determined to journal every bit of the 9 months that were to ensue. But then things started happening. Some psychological. When I heard comments from people, saying I might as well keep this news to myself for atleast the first 3 months. Some physical. Because once I was beyond the first trimester phase, I could hardly keep the food down, and the only time I was not throwing up was when I was fast asleep, which was like almost all the time while not at work. Forget regular food, for once I could not stand the sight, smell or taste of chocolate, and that perhaps was the most depressing thing ever that could have happened.
Month 5 was when things turned for the better, and all of a sudden, instead of being repulsed by food, all I could think of , was food. Blogging be damned, I needed my chocolates, and chaats, and everything junk. The glutton in me woke up with such a vengeance, that I could do nothing to control it, and ended up, well, not getting into any numerical details right now, let’s just say, much much heavier than we would have anticipated?
Work was still on, though much lighter, and weekends were all about shopping. Either for the new house, or for the baby. A lot of stuff in bright yellow, which was the cheeriest neutral colour we could think of. Stroller, crib, bedding, all the basics were worked around. Around week 32, a little complication happened. Little Zo gave us all a little fright by showing signs of arriving way earlier than expected. So I decided to take time off work and sit at home, so as to not stress the little one, and give her time to arrive.
But ofcourse, Zo, being Zo, i.e. mine, decided that now that we had stopped her from stepping out early, she would take her own sweet time to bless us with her presence. A long month and a half at home was spent, encompassing the move to the new house, the no internet phase, the joblessness and the wake up-watch TV-go online-sleep-wake up-go online-watch TV-sleep routine. And finally, in the morning on the 13th of October, 39 weeks and 2 days into the pregnancy, Zo made us rush to the hospital once more. But of course we were sent back, saying false alarm. But by 12 in the night, the false alarm did not seem as false. And once again, we rushed to the hospital, hoping that at least now, Zo had had enough of inside time!
And it looked like she did! What followed was, well, a painful 22 hours, and an emergency C-sec, where The Dude and I waited to hear the first cry of the baby. And as we did, the doctor said ‘It’s a baby girl!’
The next few minutes were a daze. Honestly, a huge surprise. For some reason, everyone kept guessing that I would be having a boy, and I had come to believe that. I would not answer when someone would ask what I wanted, because I believed it was just unfair for the mom to choose when it could be either way. But when we knew it was a girl, I think both of us had a grin plastered to our faces for the longest time after that.
The Dude got to see her properly before me, and I had to wait a few minutes before the got a tiny little creature, still smeared with stuff, wrapped in the hospital sheets, and said ‘ Do you want to see your baby?’.
That was a week ago, and this is today. Life is a vicious cycle of feeding, putting to sleep, cleaning, changing, and cooing at the baby. It is tough, it is tiring, it is different, it is awesome. And we are still getting used to it. And in a while, when we are up to it, and ofcourse, ready for it, perhaps we’ll do some mommy blogging too. Till then, lets just hope that there is enough time to update once in a while.
That’s pretty much what we’ve been up to. What about you?